You know, it can truly take a long time to realize something was a blessing and not a curse. So many things have occured in my life that I simply passed off as injury, to later look back and notice a tremendous blessing in it's place. Our failures are often laced with progress.
Jonathan and I, over the course of the past few years, have lost jobs, unexpected pregnancies, lost pregnancies, homelessness( now we had shelter, and we were cared for, very well i might add;), collections, bill collectors at our door, neg money in the account, no funds for neccesaties ie food, milk, diapers, gas. I can remember a night when I got done work and there wasn't a drop of gas in my car. I HAD to get gas to drive the ten miles home. I pulled up to the pump tried my card just praying we had just a few dollars. We did not! We had neg $33. I sat in my car and cried, I couldn't bare to call jonathan and let him know the situation. I was to prideful to stop at my parents, who lived just min away. I started the car up and prayed the entire way home. It seemed as if everything we did turned to ash. No matter how hard we tried, we could not pull ourselves up out of the gutters. We felt alone, scared, torn, unloved, betrayed, bitter, but we pressed on.
The other day I was filled with praise in my heart. I stopped for gas, and I filled the tank without even thinking about it. I stopped, tears filled my eyes, I was struck with blessing! My children had new shoes on, I had a full tank of gas, roof over my head, a happy husband, milk in the fridge that I purchased, a paid off car, no debt. How could all this have happened and I barely noticed?! Our prayers have been answered!! Infact they were answered a long time ago, they just weren't fufilled. Sometimes we don't notice the blessing a particular circumtance has on our lives until much later. The things I see as blessing now, are far more numorous than before.
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