Too often I struggle with feelings of selfishness, and self centeredness. I feel that life is unjust, that I am overworked and under appreciated. I go through my day cooking, cleaning, feeding..ect. I hear these whispers of regret of my situation. There are moments when I become consumed with bitterness and anger, which leads to a thick cloud of depression resting on my head. I begin to believe the lies that life should be more about me, and my needs. When this happens I get short with my children, I express less and less love in my actions and more and more "me." After a short time in this "poor me" mode, I begin to feel even worse, frustrated with my bad attitude.

Eventually, I will embrace my "role." It's the love of Jesus that brings me through. He shows me my place. When I feel His love , I feel renewed. I don't need validation for what I do, when I feel my Lord's love running through. The enemy wants to keep me down, but the Father lifts me up. caring for my husband and children is beautiful! I am building so much more here. I am investing in higher places. A life all about me would be boring and mondane. I think no matter your situation, the enemy will try to make you think you have it the worst, bring you down, tear you apart in your thoughts. Your mind is a powerful battle ground! Let the pitty party float away in the streams of God's mercies and Grace!!

I'm not a bad person for feeling these things, right? I mean, it's only human to feel as a mother and wife. I think it's what I choose to do with it that really matters..