Wednesday, May 5, 2010

My heart hurts

My heart hurts, I'm sick inside. I have dreaded these feelings! The only thing keeping me eating is the fact that I have an infant to nurse. My stomache is churning and turning.

For any of you that have been pregnant before you know how it consumes you. I feel as though I just found out of the positive pregnancy. The butterflies, the preoccupation with self. I can't think of anything else, I just keep praying and praying. For Him, for me, for the children...whew..we should all be blessed when this is all through! I keep reminding myself that suffering brings forth character!!! Honestly though, how much character does one need?

Thankfully, I have had my wonderful mother in-law to call whenever I need. She, like me, has a lot investing in this man and loves him dearly. I am sure, unfortunatly for her, I will be calling "frequently" for a shoulder to cry on. Of course, at least I hope, not at much as today;)

sigh...I need to take deep breaths..this to shall pass? ugh my tumy hurts..I do love the man:(

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