pain in the neck

I woke up this morning with extreme pain in my neck. I tried stretching, meds, hot compresses, nothing worked. It got to the point where I could not turn my head from side to side at all, and driving was frightening. So, I made a stop at the chiropractor!! I showed up and she says "it's been a long time..what brings you in now after two years???" I was a bit taken back by her atitude. She was right, what has taken me soo long? I told her about my four pregnancies and chaotic life, funny how she didn't seem to care..ha ha. Anyway, My entire back was cracking like rice crispies in a fresh bowl of milk. As I continued to discuss the facts of my stressful life I started crying, yes you heard me, I let out the tears infront of a stranger that I have not seen in years! There I lay, she had my head in her hands..she said in a soothing calm voice "don't worry..I'm going to do this, you just have to let go..relax and let me help you." Wow..let go? let go?! What does that look like exactly?? I wiped the tears from my face and thanked her a million times as I agreed to come back two or three times next week.

This brought me to think about letting go, what does it mean? I still have to manage my family, myself (currently my entire body seems to be falling apart at the seems), my work. What does being still and knowing mean, or better yet look like? Hmm I have a feeling I will soon find out.

So, lets see..Me
1. gall bladder attack ( trying to maintain a fat free diet full of every other nutrient)
2. neck pain (unable to sleep, turn head side to side)
3. allergies
4. Stressed about needing everyone all the time.
5. finances/paying bills on my own.
6. managing meals and schedules
7. Horrible tooth aches shooting down my jaw line.
Andrew
1. excessive thrist and hunger ( having lab work done today)
Isaac
1. allergies
2. emotions sky high (inability to handle Bon's departure)
3. Getting evaluated for signs of Asperger's Syndrome
Melody
1. gastric distress
Now Be still and know! Hmm I'm trying, I'm trying...You're right this is not that bad. These are things that are a simple part of life and we will all be fine. We may even come out on the victorious side. I struggle with making schedules..it is something that takes a lot of effort for me. I know it drives everyone around me crazy, but it is me. So, to be put in a position where this is going to be completely neccesary for my survival, to organize our lives in a much more detailed manner, has me nuts!!